last day of march

So many ups and downs since i've started work. Didn't expect that I would have the chance to experience all the unexpected. Basically, everyday is a new challenge to me. No matter how nice I plan my work, there is sure 1 or 2 fantastic-bombastic event occurs.

I used to not-to-care my actions, I would follow my direction and my own style of doing things. I've never ever think of all the consequences of my action. I've never think of how others feel. Perhaps I'm selfish, in fact I am.

Just lost a friend of mine, and didnt expect that he would end his life like that. Didnt know him long though, 2 months+. But he is the only one in the company whom I respected the most. He is a 60 yrs old plus uncle. He was a bachelor and was staying alone. Due to closing down of the company and didnt get a sen afta being retrenched (thanks to the stupid fucker directors), he choosed to end his life. I used to advised him when he was still in the company, chit chat awhile with him before he goes for lunch and afta he back from lunch.

Well, I dunno how to describe my feeling now. I thought by sharing things out and nothing is unsolvable. But sometimes we do have to face the reality, and for the past 23 years, I've been living on my own imagination, thought everything also 'no problem'. Everything can cincai punya, everything also is tak apa punya.

But NO !!! Don't be optimistic, don't be pessimistic, be realistic.

I'm growing up everyday. THanks for the opportunity to experience all the abovementioned events.

terrible humans

we are all Adam Hitler to the animals, the world is the nazi deathcamp to em'.

18SG+

just motivation

" If I have to swim across the sea to get what I want, I will learn how to swim, then I'll swim it. If I have to climb the highest mountain to get what I want, I will learn how to climb, then I'll climb it. If I have to dive the deepest ocean to get what I want, I will learn how to dive, then I'll dive it. If I get disappointed because things did not appear as I wanted, I will learn how to accept it, then I'll try to accept it. At least now I have experienced how to swim, to climb and to dive and also how to accept everything that came from my effort. Then, I will try again to do better." Johni Pangalila

" Unexpected hits may force you to your knees, or worse, knock you on your face; but if you have the courage to get back up & walk around with that 'bruise' visible for all to see, the next time it happens, people won't notice the bruise...just your dignity while you 'recover'!" M. Goerz --- Washington

" Don't ask yourself, 'Can I?' but 'Am I willing to do what it takes?'... because yes! You can!" Salomon A. Quijada

journey

victory?

failure?

"Success or failure doesn't come to you…you go to it."

now

the journey begins..... again.