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Thursday, December 31, 2009

31122009

Alright, today is the last day of 2009, the day you should look back and assess what you've done and achieved during the year. So moment of truth here, literally i achieved nothing, i failed my exams, and quite a number of unhappy moments happend during the year too. Well, i cant blame others, i failed my exams because im the one who sat for ehm, im the one who caused all the unhappy moments. I had been thinking too much (way too much) throughout the year, where to work, how to work, what to work, when to work, how to be rich, how to earn money etc instead of concentrating on my studies. The December sitting was terrible, especially P3. It wasn't that hard, but hell of an easy this round, but i just did't do well. Because the questions were so easy, I tried to come out with the best answer, but i didn't, at certain point, my mind went totally blank. I started to panic, i looked at others around me, they were writing as though they were copying directly from the examiner's answer. From there, I lost my focus, but i forced myself to continue writing. So i think my answers were, to some extent, out of logic.

Alright, forget about exam. Now lets talk about... hmm.... incidents I encountered during the year and consequently the conclusion of each incident.

#1 Don't Trust Anyone.
Sundra told me once before, it made no sense to me that time. But slowly, i realized that, the saying is true. Trust no one, each of everyone of us has our own agenda. I myself would do something that is against a so-called 'promise'. Especially you girls, always be skeptical. You girls have many boxes and links inside your head, but we guys have only one box and link, sex! So beware of others, we men have nothing to lose, but you girls are different story. Ofcoz, this is not always the case, when we truely love a girl, we wouldn't just think of sex. So, always be skeptical, and don't simply trust what others said.

#2 Admit your mistakes.
If you are wrong, just fucking admit it. Stop blaming others. Actions speak louder, you can give tons of excuses, but we have eyes, we can see. So stop giving all the fucking nonsense excuses.

#3 Save more, spend less and invest.
I should save more, spend less on unnecessary items and invest more than i spend. Shares are probably the most amazing financial instrument or vehicle has ever invented. I'm learning how to invest in shares now =)

#4 Differentiation
We like to be different. We are by nature, pursuing differentiation strategy. We wear different cloths, we comb different hair, we just want to be different from others. We want to be different in order to attract the opposite sex, we want to stand ahead of the crowd. But, we are already different. Just be yourself, you are different! You are beautiful, when you are who you are.

**Above are just my personal opinion, they are controversial, not 100% true, and don't trust whatever i said. Your discretion is advised. =P

Lets talk about the present. My OBU is still pending, at the same time, I'm confused when to apply for job. Maybe I should wait after result.
Ermmm... dunno what to write already, even though i got alot things wanna write LOL.

Wishing all of you a Happy New Year 2010 =)



Friday, December 25, 2009

Marry Chris Must!


Merry Christmas XD

Friday, December 11, 2009

live stronger

i copied this from my friend's blog. I wanna repost (without his permission >.<) here and share with u guys how a victim of Mediterranean Anemia perceives his life and the matter of life and death. sorry it was in mandarin though. give it a thought, never give up your life easily.

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06 MRI T2*-----心脏铁质指数:9.6 ;肝脏指数:1.5
09 MRI T2*-----心脏铁质指数:7.8 ;肝脏指数:1.01

这次从新加坡检查回来依然是不好的成绩,变糟糕了一点点,唉,每次都是这样。。怪也只能怪自己不够爱惜自己的身体,没有遵从医生的指示。突然记得妈妈说的一句话:要命自己顾,5个简单的华文字却组成一句强而有力的意思。

以前埋怨父母为什么把我带来这个世界,受尽其他人不必受的苦,讨厌自己是一个地中海贫血病患,一直幻想如果我不是这样就不用每晚打针,如果我不是这样我就不用时常输血,一切的如果都希望发生在睡醒以后的那刻,但如果却没有发生,我依旧是那个患有地中海贫血症**。

一开始的打针输血都是哭哭啼啼,很不希望到医院,很不喜欢夜晚的来临:日子旧了就变成麻木了:再过一段日子麻木再次演变成恐惧了。每次打针的部位都会肿到像鸡蛋,没有过几天又得打同一个部位,伤口上撒盐就是这比喻吧,所以它变成了我每次偷懒不打针的原因。科技确实是越来越发达,只可惜我却没有发达的钱去追求它的步伐。

小时候不喜欢对别人说自己是地贫者,怕被人看不起,怕被歧视。上体育课,也不希望有什么特别待遇
,我只想活得和别人一样,是正常的。

死亡的气息从小到大一直笼罩着自己,看着朋友一个一个地离开,猜想自己会是第几个?在中学的时期是人生中最灰暗的日子,自己放弃了一切活下去的动力,放弃珍惜自己的生命,放弃打针的日子,觉得时间对我来说是多余的,因为时间的长短只可以决定我的生命短或长,只希望盼望自己是下一个遇见死神的人。这思想,这态度,回想起真的要不得。也许每个人都有自己灰暗的一面吧。

所以我乐天派的个性不是我与生俱来的,是我后天被激发出来。很开心自己可以变成更加积极,更加开朗,感染其他人之余,对自己也很有帮助。生命的长短其实是不那么重要,但重要的是过程是否活得精彩。只可惜人是贪心的,我希望我拥有更加多的时间。现在的我拥有许多东西,而且很不甘心就这样离开,太多太多的东西等待着我去完成,我不能倒在这里。盼望上帝给我更多的时间去完成我的人生。现在我很满足现有的一切,我有一个美满的家庭,有一班很支持我的朋友,有一个很爱我的另外一半。

如果再次问我是否是一名地中海贫血者,我可以很骄傲的对你说:我是!!!才发现原来一开始不是怕被别人歧视而是打从一开始自己已经看不起自己了。地中海贫血是我人生的一部分,而我也是它的一部分,我很骄傲我是地中海贫血者,因为它让我拥有一个不平凡的人生。别人能够有的成就,我也一样可以达到,而我拥有的成就,别人却可能不能拥有!要加油了,不能再像以前那样子,要活命就靠自己吧!!!活下去!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, December 10, 2009

passion for singing

xD

Thursday, December 3, 2009

do it

"Forget past mistakes. Forget failures. Forget everything except what you're going to do now and do it."
-- William Durant

"Doubt whom you will, but never doubt yourself."
-Christian Nestell Bovee

ALRIGHT, so
LETS DO IT !
WE CAN DO IT !!!!

ALL THE BEST MY FRIENDS.
MERDEKA AHEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Doing your best is more important than being the best =)